It just so happens that about 30 minutes ago put an end to my 18th birthday. To day was absolutely perfect, I couldn’t have asked for a better day or a better person to spend it with. For as far back as i can remember I have cried every year on my birthday I just get so depressed around this time of year. But this year i laughed so much I was crying for a completely different reason. It felt so great. When i got home after today’s events i called my mom and cousin and talked to my grandma, i even got to make a wish on 11:11pm. then He came along and said 1 thing and for some reason it somehow melted away all of the sweetness of today, right at the very end. I don’t know why it’s so easy for him to do this to me but it happens everytime, i get up set and cry and think about what i’d say to him if i had the guts and how i dont know how i am going to handle the real world, I too sensitive, and i just get so damn depressed. I so scared, I am just so scared. I just that that maybe since it was my birthday that maybe just maybe my 11:11 wish might work.